Thursday, July 23, 2009

How do I thank you?


*Sigh* There's been a reason that I haven't blogged for a while and it's because I've been... well...preoccupied with some personal things the last few weeks. I know, I know, that statement doesn't tell you much and was BEYOND vague but no one wants to get into the nitty gritty of my personal life right?
I will let you know that health wise, I'm blessed to be just fine in that department so Mom, stop worrying about that now! But spiritually, emotionally, and mentally, I had never been so drained and wiped in my entire life. I was going through some stuff that changed who I was and not for the better. I truly wasn't myself: I was flaky, inconsistent, moody, confused, anxious, depressed, and unhappy. The good news is that things are on the mend now and I have high hopes because each and every day seems a little bit brighter and brighter.
Your probably thinking, "Thanks for the major downer blog post! Why did she even blog about this?" I am writing about this vague experience for one purpose.....because I am so incredibly grateful and I needed to tell somebody before my heart couldn't contain it anymore!
I'm so grateful for the my amazing friends who came out of the woodwork and stopped their lives for a while to take the time and energy to support me and encourage me through my trial. I am also grateful for the relationship I quickly strengthened with my savior as I spoke with him planly in many personal late night and early morning prayes. I am grateful for a husband who want's nothing but to see my happy. I am grateful that I have a family who encourages me and lifts me up no matter the circumstance. I am extremly grateful a select of set people in particular (who I won't embarrass by naming, but you know who you are) who were there to listen to me, to give me support, to hash things out, to cheer me up, and to be what I needed the most...a friend. I am grateful for each of you and for our friendship and I cherish you even more that I did before this all happened if that's possible. You are each beautiful, wonderful thoughtful women, thank you. Thank you for showing me what being a true friend looks like. Thank you for allowing me to be myself and for not judging me. Thank you for loving me when I wasn't sure I still loved myself. Thank you for being the answer to my prayers. I love you all and I'm so grateful to call each of you you my friend.

7 comments:

Mindy said...

I'm glad you're feeling better. Let me know if there's anything I can do for you! Beautiful picture by the way :)

Bethany said...

It is sooooo good to hear that you are feeling better. It is hard to hear that such a sweet and darling gal like you struggles with some things and feels down. Let me know if there is anything else that I can do to keep that smile on your beautiful face. Just remember how loved you are, by your Heavenly Father, by your many many friends and family, and by me.

Jared said...

I want to add my thanks and gratitude as well. Kelly and I are both very lucky to have such wonderful friends who are so willing to go the extra mile for us. Thanks.

Joseph and McKell Cope said...

I wish I knew what your struggle was...but whatever it is, I'm sorry and I hope you know that I love you and am here for you always. Thanks for being a great cousin!

Destiny Rayburn said...

Dude, you sound like a mess! I guess I'm a bad sister-in-law because I don't have a clue what is/was going on. Hope it gets all the way better for you. LOVES

Candace said...

It was really nice to see you guys this week! We've been so bad at keeping in touch. We appreciated the delicious meal and rockin' entertainment! Let's do it again.

Ambo said...

wow, you said a mouthfull there woman..lol But sadly I have been there! and am too trying to make a day at a time be better and better! I dont know what your going thru but you already are amazing in just being able to say it out loud! I know we truly have really only hung out once up at my store.. But know that in those few hours I met you.. I will always think your amazing, beautiful, talented in you own way.. No matter what people see on the outside.. its how we feel about ourselfs that makes us who we are... I hope the best for you and if you need to ever talk, message me on facebook... Much love girlie